Through My Eyes

i feel like typing
i don't care what
i went for coffee with dad
and we talked
he told work stories
i told school stories
and we generally
bitched about life.
it felt good.
i tried an egg nog latte
AMAZING.

i'm lost... and alone...
kid i'm right here
and i'm not leaving
there's no way to make you stay
but i'm saving all my worries
for
that day you don't need me...

my heart aches.
everytime i see him
and i would like you to understand
that i would drop you in a millisecond
to be home
and have them
and be. with. him.
just understand that.

i am APPARENTLY the only one writing
on this ol' blog lately
funny how it's " ol' " once it's no longer
shiny and new
did you know that girls disgust me?
well okay.
the girls HERE.
maybe not ...
no there are a few that disgust me there too.
i feel like i've changed.
not for the worse.
not really for the better.
just. changed.
and i remember.
when he changed.
and i was baffled to no end.
and now.
i think i've changed the same way.
and my current boy
is my me.
with all of his innocent barriers
that keep him from my world
and seeing through my eyes
because my eyes...
Lord to see through my eyes...

-little bird.